Feeling Resourced
|
"Get back here!" I find myself shouting at my focus at times, but that's just a story. The internal tug-of-war isn't real. I could stop giving my attention to the distraction at any time, but I instead let the avoidance process run its course, and then I am resourced to do the task. Let me just run eight miles first, thinking intermittently about the message I want to send, and then I will feel resourced to send it and possibly receive a response that is not to my liking. I am practicing being okay with things as they are even when they're not how I want things to be. This practice now includes reaching out to 100 people. I shared my goals for the reach outs on Substack yesterday: Goal: Receive advice and opportunities in my career as a coder. I have worked two jobs professionally as a frontend developer, I have done a few freelance coding gigs, I have made over 30 personal projects, and I have my dream industries and missions I would love to contribute to, so what could be next for me? Goal: Receive advice and opportunities in my career as a tantra practitioner. I have enjoyed learning so much this year about myself and the art of serving others through this fascinating modality that blends conversation and emotional release and touch. I have loved the trainings and the practice sessions and I want to discover how to market myself and let others know that I do this in ways that feel authentic to me. Goal: Meet and talk with interesting people in Austin. Now that the weather here is trending towards tolerable I’d love to connect with people on a walk or over coffee. It has been a journey to feel resourced to share my tantra practitioner work to the extent that I have. I originally didn't have any face pictures on that page, but I've learned to feel so resourced through the habitual self-loving act of moving towards what I want that I am becoming less concerned with what others might think of me. Life is happening right now, and my avoidance pattern of letting potential criticism dictate my choices is running its course. Ten months ago I wrote about sovereignty as a theme for the year: "being myself as best as I can." I am glad to be grappling with my desire to please others since it stands in opposition to work that lights me up. I am happy and grateful to watch myself become more capable and confident and powerful. |
@strangestloop
During a Gamification Conversation, I helped a startup founder create a framework of rules, rewards, and accountability for the area of his work that gave him the most resistance. This framework made him visibly excited - he was glad to have a lighter perspective on the work that was so heavy to him that he frequently avoided it. Towards the end of our conversation he asked why I was doing this. What's important to me about this offering? I feel most fulfilled when I give something that...
I stand alone on the balcony overlooking the backyard, leaning against the railing, thinking of nothing in particular. The door creaks open. "It's tiiiiiiime," my friend tells me. I walk inside towards the room where a dozen people await my arrival. Murmurs and declarations of "yes" greet me as I breach the circle. I stand at the center and am rewarded with louder yeses. I move towards someone, then someone else. Silence. Back to the center. "Yes," affirms the chorus. Okay, here. I hold my...
Hello! In the throes of a lower mood I try to remember how much I have to be grateful for, how much I have in my life that is worth celebrating. Today's newsletter is me doing that! It's remarkable how simple and effective this practice is at shifting my mood from gloom to bloom. Here is my gratitude list: Receiving appreciation for The RAMP Mindset and the dots method on a video call. Running into some new connections at a friend's birthday party. Hearing Nine In The Afternoon on the radio...