On a recent neighborhood walk I noticed and appreciated what I looked at as though it were an art gallery and that got me thinking about how I can appreciate the details in my awareness in all moments and that got me thinking about the importance of paying attention to what I pay attention to. I continue to pull on the red Kabbalah string and its lessons continue to be comforting and clarifying and inspiring. There is an emphasis on noticing the tendency to unconsciously react and instead choosing to do something different. When I am tempted to feel resentment or behave poorly or indulge a victim story, I can instead pause and feel grateful for the temptation because it gives me the opportunity to respond intentionally, revealing more light in the world. I have become aware of concerns with using the words "masculine" and "feminine" to refer to two modes of existence that correspond to doing and being, giving and receiving, thinking and feeling, and so on. But we need agreed upon terminology so that we can talk about these modes because if we don't talk about them then they are shadow stuff. What other words could we use? Yin and yang? Alpha and omega? Eros and agape? These are a few of the dots I have collected recently. I feel two ways about my often-fragmented attention because it has given me a wide swath of creative interests and magical experiences, but I don't have one Main Thing right now. Something external to me wags its finger and whispers in my ear that I need a Main Thing, but I feel most alive and excited right now by collecting the dots, so I will continue to do that. |
When I find myself facing a temptation lately, remembering that the opposite is the medicine soothes me. I do the difficult task and abstain from the unhealthy food and tell myself the uncomfortable truth. These things don't feel good in the moment, but responding to life's tests by doing the opposite of what my habitual lower energy pattern would have me do is my self-loving, self-helping medicine. Knowing that makes it a bit easier to stomach. It's these small victories, these little...
A few weeks ago an impromptu collaboration on Twitter led to the creation of this meme: via @christineist on Twitter I enjoy and appreciate the many self-other love and growth loops in my life, and I think there is a lot to be gained from internalizing that you get to be your own friend. It's simple but not always easy: treat yourself how you want your friends to treat you. See the good in who you are and what you do. Take good care of yourself. When you're your own friend, your friendships...
My friend asked me: How did you find the questions you are most curious about, that you are asking constantly, that you are investigating with your life? How would you help someone else to find their own questions, their own curiosity? What does the activity of considering that bring up for you? And I answered: How I found the questions feels like a fish in water scenario. There's probably things from childhood that generated my fascination with other-connection, self-connection, creativity,...