My North Star
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I found my north star a few weeks ago. Throughout the retreat, different tools and practices helped me understand how I want to interface with my tasks and with other people. From one practice, I surfaced a yearning for collaboration between the centers of love, security, and creativity in my body. The phrase "loving creative discipline" makes these centers light up like a Broadway stage. Another practice showed me that I am a king. I've always felt more aligned with the magician archetype, but I uncovered a call to put on the crown, to serve the kingdoms in my life with humility, awareness, and grounded leadership. It feels like a bit of an edge: "Can I claim this?" Absolutely I can. During a third practice, I focused on my breath, on circulating the air continuously, and I released the vice grip I so often have on my mind. I didn't know exactly how the epiphany came to me - I imagine that the coaching calls I've hosted this year and the podcast conversations on womanhood I had over the past month were crucial ingredients. The message hit me like a lightning bolt: I want to heal wounds from the masculine. I put this into practice that same day with a friend. I instructed her intuitively and spoke from the heart, and she was moved by my presence, care, and attention. Since that day, I've done a lot of talking and a lot of writing, and now I'm excited to share my offer. Witnessing is a 1-1 conversation on a video call or in person in Austin, Texas. I invite anyone with emotional wounds from men to express freely, to process your experience. I will hold space for you. If you need to vent, cry, share, ask questions, or release emotions, I will support you, guide you, and witness you. I'm also excited to grow my capacity to serve here. If you think there's a book I ought to read or a person I ought to talk to or a course I ought to take, let me know! On my website, I have more information on why and how I am witnessing, who I am, and my personal curriculum that informs this service. I invite you to check it out to learn more. Thanks for reading :) |
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